colored glass

Colored Glass
By Shiri Chizumi
Through my heart they pass
Sharp shards of glass
They slowly break my heart into two
But still, I keep asking, how could you?

My life was just day and night
Nothing special, just black and white
But then you came along,
And everything started to go wrong.

I started feeling funny things,
Started to look forward to what each day brings
Started thinking life was great
Started believing that there was such a thing as fate.

I was blinded by all the colors you brought in my dreams
I started seeing the silver-tinted blue-green of gentle streams
The sunshiny yellow you mixed in with the redness of my heart
The way I felt blue whenever we were apart.

It was your fault that I’d get a silly smile in my face for no reason at all,
Your fault that I would wait by the phone just waiting for your call
Your fault that I would always dream of holding you so close and near
Your fault that I’d get confused with the things that were once clear

And as time passed, it only got worse
I started seeing the near-invisible pink-violet tinges in flowers
Started seeing the beautiful rainbows in the sky
You made me weak, made me smile, made me cry.

You did ghastly things to me
You showed me what it really was to be happy
You taught me how to fly, how to be free
But now that I think about it, why couldn’t you just let me be?

I blame you for making me feel the pain when dreams die
For making me fear being apart or saying goodbye.
For not letting me leave things as they were
For making me feel and see all that color.

Because now that you’re gone, it’s back to black and white
Because when you left you took all the color and the warm light
Because now I know what love feels like, what love truly is
I’m missing every laugh, every smile, and every kiss

You let me into your techni-colored world for some time
And I could never forgive you for such a crime
You let me love you, let me build dreams of gold, silver and brass
Then you left, leaving me with nothing but shattered, once-colored glass

Christmas at a Dorm

Christmas at a Dorm
By Shiri Chizumi

Christmas Eve
She sits alone on her bed.
Pondering
All these thoughts running thorough her head
Despair
Right now, what she is feeling
Worthlessness
What she was led all her life to believing
Rocking
Back and forth; she starts to do
Ignoring
The dead silence in her room
No one
She thinks is there for her
Alone
Anything than that she’d definitely prefer
Tears
Running down her face
Loneliness
Engulfing her in a cold embrace
Ding
The clock strikes; half-past twelve
Mirror
She looks up scornfully, loathing herself
Living
She thinks she shouldn’t be doing
Ring
She answers after a moment of hesitating
Hello
She whispers hollowly to the caller
Merry Christmas
An old friend happily greets her
Smile
What, in quite a while, she hasn’t done
Talk
They did, until a quarter to one
Jacket
She grabbed quickly; she was going out
Mirror
She looked once again; this time, not with a pout
Whistling
She did, as she went to meet her old friend down the hall
Thinking
Someone cared; life could go on, after all

The Best Friend

The Best Friend
By Shiri Chizumi

How can I just stand here
And watch you pretend to be happy
When we both know that he doesn’t love you
And he just longs to be free?

How can I just comfort you
And tell you that he doesn’t mean to hurt you
When I felt the pain and the sorrow
That you have went through?

How can I say the words
“fight for your what you believe in”
when he doesn’t even seem to notice you
and this builds a gap in between?

How can I just watch you cry in the darkness
Muttering his name in your sleep
Trying to control myself from crying
Because of my secret that I promised to keep

How can I make myself smile
In spite of what I see in your eyes
Making me tell you everything’s alright
Surrounding yourself with all these lies

How can I share
This last dance with you
When we both know it’s not me you want
But the one who has hurt you?

And how can I find the courage
To say what I have been feeling all these years
When you only see me as your best friend
As keep this to myself and fight back all the tears…